24 months later.. Happy two years anniversary to the one who stole my heart.. I love you my Curt Charteur Casey Uy, more than you’ll ever know. And thank you for being beyond amazing. I can’t imagine spending the last 24 months with anyone else. 24 down, forever to go. I love you so much. :”>
My 22nd of Dec was the best!
It goes like this…..
Well be meeting up at 1PM supposedly but I was late cause I’m still preparing the stuffs for the surprise thingy. And he’s really angry, fvcking angry! He kept on calling and calling but I keep on rejecting and rejecting the phone calls.
Then when I answered the phone he kept on shouting and shouting, I felt bad at the same time happy cause it was for him that I’m thinking, he’ll be so surpise with that… but not. Whateverr.
Can I share it on tagalog? Yes? YES!! HAHAHA tanginaaa. Sakit ilong ko e. Hahahahahaha!!!!! So yun na nga…. Medyo mangiyak ngiyak na ko kasi naman nung kagabe plano plano na ko na dapat masaya lang kami walang away, pero ano nangyari?? Unang kita palang… away na. Huhu </3
Pero nung nasa LRT na kami, hinawakan niya kamay ko :”> e di syempre kinilig ako kasi naman diba…. ako naman kasi talaga may kasalanan, I should’ve prepare it early so yuuuun. Tapos ang sweet pa kasi may dala siyang rose. ayieeee!! Pumunta kami ng MOA. Dapat pupunta na lang ulit kami ng Noel’s Bazaar kaso wala na yung free shuttle. Nyahyahaha! So ayuuun.. Lakad lakad lakad tapos we decided na kumain, sa Giligan’s kami kuamin :) Oy ah! Hati kami sa gastos noh! tapos after nun nag MOA Eye kami :) GRABE YUNG SIGAW NG GIRLFRIEND KO! AY! BOYFRIEND KO PALA! HAHAHAHAHAHAH NAKAKATUWA E! HAHAHAHA. May fear of heights kasi yung kupal na yon. Hahahaha. Pero super ganda ng view sa taas :”> Share ko yung pics soooon nasa kanya pa e.
Tapos pumunta kaming bahay nila kasi para mag dinner. Oo, puro kain nasa utak namin noh? Haha. Tapos yun na nga.. Tapos tiningnan muna pala namin yung ticks for paramore. SOLD OUT NA VIP :((((((( Anyways.. pinapatagal ko kasi gusto ko makita yung fireworks kasi alam ko pag 7 meron kasi di pa 7 huhuhu </3 so nakaalis na kami ng di nakikita yun… Pero nung pag dating namin sa kanila may fountain churva kasi ewan.. so feeling ko naman para saken yun, feeler ko. amppp
Nung nasa bahay na kami deretso siya sa ref, may bouquet pala siyang hinanda :(((( <333333 :”“”> Ang cute nung bouquet!!! Kinilig ako :”> Perstaym niya yun noh! tapos pumunta kami sa taas.. May gift na naman siya saken na top from F&H. Ayieeee!!!! na lagi kong sinusuot suot :’) tapos nag handa pa siya ng playlist ng song para patugtugin, ang sweeeeeet!!! Tunaw ako e :”“”“”> hindi ko tuloy napigilan sarili ko umiyak.
Hayyyy nakooooo… sana di na natapos yung mga oras na yun :( Yung oras na yun, wala akong ibang naramdaman kundi yung love ko sa kanya, yung kami ngayon, yung kung gano kami nag mature para sa isa’t isa. I know.. May pagkakamali kami pareho sa isa’t isa, but it’s worth the try :”> Kaya naman wala akong regrets sa kung anong desisyon na ginawa ko kasi alam ko sa huli, siya.. siya lang kailangan ko :”>
Yep, it felt like it was his first time to give me such surprises. I couldn’t help but aaaaaah cry (deep inside hahaha) cause it’s just so priceless. Curt, you are the only one who could make me happy and feel so special!!!!! I love you so much baby boy <3 Hanggang bukas? YES! :”> <3
What if? What. If. What if? The question that bugs my head all the fvcking time, what if I never said “yes” again? What if there are no more chances? What if we don’t have the “us” now? What if you and I are strangers again?
Will I be happy? I can’t imagine life without you, I can’t imagine myself being with another guy but will I be happy if the thought of you cheated on me still lingers? You being with another girl? Caught you but didn’t give me a chance to know every little bit of that affair?
Countless nights and days passed. I thought time will heal this. I thought having you, giving you another chance, giving us another try will heal this pain that I can forget all that bullshit and cry no more but what happen to me?
Now? Yes, I’m happy. I am happy. It’s just not complete, it’s just that when we having a moment I always think that you and that girl are doing that stuff too, and it makes me feel uncomfortable, it burst my insecurity, it makes me feel really, as in really jealous because she had you, even in a small period, she had you.. And it kills me inside.
I just can’t go on. I just can’t move on. I am trying my best. I did my best, but it’s me stucked at the middle of misery and happiness. I just can’t find my way back to myself. I don’t have that trust anymore, I’m still afraid.
So what if? What if it’s the other way around?